…Sitting in the office, alone, at night, after the shamefull rally that has just taken place in my city… I miss Sarah’s presence to discuss what/who (the hell) is crowling around Belgrade streets and what is its/their vision of future? “Who” refers to the Radicals and “what” to the flow of self-un-aware crowed, Radicals united into an ugly river that’s alive and canibal, considering human origins of it… So, I wonder, what is the furute they/it see(s)? Do they/does it have options of desired future and the one they/it fear(s)?
Events like this rally bring out the worst in me: I look at an other human, wondering how come he/she manages to talk, when I would call him/her “it” and expect “it” to bark.
I admit my schovinist thoughts, but on whom? On political opponents? About 99% of the people in my city are my political opponents, yet they do not provoke such bare and savage ideas in my head… only this canibal river does it, Radicals phisically joined together in public. Luckilly, I work on my own thoughts and deconstruct them, until I repeat for 10 times: “a human being that not only denies war crimes, but cheers to them, is a human being too”. How does it sound? Radically stupid, yet true.
And who is to help them all see? And where are the laws that will make them censor their mind before they speak it, spreading hatrage, (historic) lies, neonationalistic spirit, insults and threats to others? And why do times like these last days bring the image that there is “them” (in schovinist words “it”)/Radicals, and “us”/the rest? Another of my personal impressions: whenever there is one clearely defined category (of people) that makes a strong public appearance, by simply refering shortly to that category as “them”, it is suggested that there is also “us”. Now, this division doesn’t match my taste at all. Why would I allow “them” to put me into any category, especially “us” category, when “they” haven’t even been smart enough to premeditate it, they actually just have the instinct to attack when they feel threatened (an act rather close to life in wild nature, definitly distant to ways of acting in cultivated areas)? It reminds me of the united front against Milosevic in which “we” were all together, that kind of “us”. What a good desguise for all sort of frauds! How many of “them” can actually intrude among “us”? More precisely: how many of “us” belong to “them”, willingly or not? I don’t want to share any togetherness with people who believe that Karadzic should be convicted because only then we (including “them”) will stand a chance for better economic standard with all potential foreign investments! “Us” doesn’t exist. Not all of the people who stayed at home with the intention to avoid the rally are on the same side! There is more then nuances that devide us: some were “victims” of Milosevic regime and are “hostages” of war criminals, some do not care at all and believe that they are not political (what a luxuory, living in an agressor state!), some were thinking of going but they went to another party, some went to Church to pray for Karadzic and Mladic and light a candle for Milosevic (even though not 29th of February, this was an important day for Serb nation), and some were, may St. Sloba forgive me, plotting against their own Serbian tribe, by knowing facts about Serbian ellectoral will during the past 17 years, by following up events/spying, denouncing, betraying, like I do. And: Oh boy, do I get well payed for it, or what!(Curtosy of NATO)
One thing is sure: who ever stayed at home, had a good chance to watch one of the TV shows inspired by Karadzic’s identity game! As I was leaving my place, late at night, to come here where I can use the Internet, there was an outstanding piece on Studio B/public TV station of the city. The piece consisted of many proffesionals giving their expertize on forging identity, from looks and styling, then character and personality, to gaining fully new documents! On Karadzic example, they practically revealed a recepy how to do it, underlining every week point of security in our system of paper, documents, ID cards and passport production, also of ways of issueing them! Is that analytic journalism (wich vanishes when it comes to researching corruption, organized crime, financial backgrounds of major political parties, ties and bonds between polititians and mob etc.) or is that just opportunistic and radically stupid? Karadzic has become a trend setter – many are getting into alternative medicine, many consider changing their looks radically (stupid or not), many are intreegued by doctor’s mind able to so easily adopt a new self, so they are wondering if they could do it too (romantic, ah?). Karadzic is also setting trends in journalism: new identity, or a double – no more, no less, to get more audience attention.
It surely is all about trends and sell aways. Karadzic arrest has created a Karadzic brand. It is so simple. Even I have met more then one person, here, in my country, who have more names or change them as often as socks (I’m not telling the secret how often we change socks in our Serb cultural heritage and customs, nor weather we have accepted changing socks as a higyenical necessity). ID story is not exclusive at all, in itself. What’s exclusive is that Radovan Karaszic did it. So it’s in, it’s a sell, sold product. That is why the show I explained, the piece on Studio B, was possible: it reveals no big secret, no news to potential paper forgery, because those who want that business have actually had it for years! What remains is to cash the products of Karadzic brand: alternative medicine, documentary and fiction production of ID stories in all media, new (hairy and more hairy) looks, myth about a doctor who wrote books (this one was just to rhyme, although Radovan wrote several plays), maybe prices of real estate in my neighbourhood go up again (they have already reached mythical – radically stupid – sizes!) because, hey, if the quater was good enough for Radovan… while nothing is changing, while Radicals are so arogantly and ignorantly making everybody else “the rest”/”us”/the most suspicious category with many holding more identities then one…
And how about the freequent fals alarms? During the past year, more and more often different institutions/buildings/objects are falsely being alarmed with annonimous calls (lack of identity is more dangerous then double) announcing that there is a bomb set to explode. I haven’t seen one serious TV show on that issue – noone bothered to investigate and research on who and why is making such calls. Until the first bomb explodes.
Photos by: Jelena Markovic